How’s Tarot Changing My Life
This is my first article on this blog. So I guess, I’ll start to tell reader about myself as a tarot reader. This time, I will tell about how tarot changing my life and make me become a better person.
Well, on the contrary when most people feel they have some kind of super power since birth or childhood and they became psychic until now, myself, just have interest in tarot around six years ago (from the year this article is posted). At that time, I’m just an university student on 6th semester. In my country (Indonesia), usually, it just take 2 semester more (around 1 year) to finish the education. I have interest in tarot and mentalism magic (or mental magic, not to be confused with magick) at the same time, and I learn both at the same time.
My first deck was Gilded Tarot by Cirro Marchetti with companion book written by Barbara Moore. And because of that companion book, I know that tarot reading have some psychological approach on it. For you information, in my country, lot’s people are religion fanatics. I mean, they thought tarot reading as part of evil doing and lots of bad things will happen if people try to learn tarot card. To make the matter worse, this kind of negative’s stigma, also empowered by some tarot reader too. I’m still remember when I’ve heard many people said “I’ve heard from a tarot reader, that if you want to learn tarot, you need to sacrifice 1 out of 3 aspects of your life: wealth, lover, or your family.”. Instead of lots of ‘negative news’, I’m still learning and found out that kind of myth is made by people who know nothing about tarot or by tarot reader himself to prevent other people learning this kind of knowledge.
Because I’ve learn tarot card when I was around 23, I feel it’s interesting to learn more because many writings about learning tarot itself is motivating and suggest about positive thought. At the beginning, I’m learning tarot basic especially reading cards, performing spell, sigil magic, talisman, and other aspect that have relationship with tarot. I’m learning all by myself, selecting which material I want to learn and which not. In theory and concept basis, I’m reading some book about tarot; while for practical basis, I’m usually reading my friend for free at campus. I’m also reading tarot for myself to evaluate my life everyday and doing some follow-up reading for my close friend.
Change in my environment
To make the story short, I’ve learn anything I want about tarot in 4 years, and I’m starting to going professionally (a.k.a reading and paid). At the beginning of my professional career, I’m starting to know the ‘outside world’ of tarot enthusiast. I’m start to know some expert in tarot reading in my country (Indonesia), try to join their facebook group and know some people who have passion in tarot reading.
One thing I’m rather confuse is, on the contrary from what I’m expecting (a good person, knowledgeable, supportive attitude, and so on), what I’ve found is lots of tarot enthusiast who think they have somekind of gift and feel they’ve know everything about tarot. What I’m trying to say is, they are so proud about their ‘gift’, show off into the others, but NEVER learn from ‘outside literature’. In Indonesia, most people speak and write in their mother language, which is called bahasa Indonesia; but somehow very few person who can speak, read, or write English. As we know, there are lots of good source of knowledge about tarot in English. But since most of tarot enthusiast in my country can’t read English fluently, they rely heavily on tarot book in bahasa Indonesia.
The problem is, most of tarot book in Indonesian language is limited for only covering ‘tarot reading only’ as their subject. Although there are some good Indonesian’s book about tarot, it only revolves around how to read, shuffle, and card interpretation. From this, it makes tarot card in Indonesia just for reading purpose, not more than that.
I won’t debate their originality of their gift because I found myself fluent for reading tarot by learning. But because of their rarely gain new knowledge about tarot, so much thing looks new for them when I told about tarot’s card benefit. They’ve found it’s strange (but interesting) if they using tarot as tool for self-development, having personal journal, initiating dream with tarot card, doing spell work, or even make story based on tarot card. So much new knowledge for their eyes and the response is very mixed from my opinion. Some people decide to rely with their knowledge only without learning anymore and some of them start to learn and share this kind of ‘new knowledge’.
With that in mind, in just 2 years of my professional career as tarot reader in Indonesia, I start doing reading and sharing knowledge to fellow tarot reader. Within my journey of learning this pack of tarot card, I’ve found some people who have using psychological approach and using tarot as tool for psychological consultation.
Right now, I’m comfortable to say that I’m doing reading with psychological and intuition approach. It’s because in my country, when I saying that kind of approach, most people (and later become my client) feel that what I’m doing is trying to help them and it’s not bad, negative, or demonic. At least, when people think that way, they’re more open to suggestion, not afraid to face their challenge, and I can help them to show their path.
Change in my personal life’s value
I’ve tell my short story about change in my environment when I’m learning tarot. The next, is learning tarot card also changing my life’s value. Personally it’s 100% true. First, the old me, somehow is rather religious (if not rather fanatics toward my religion), now I’m really living up my word about respect other people’s belief/ religion and also have a new faith that all belief system basically are good. What changes them is because their leader, some of them, have their own agenda or still have big uncontrolled ego within them.
I’m also have learned one important life’s tips and proved useful in my –practical- life that if someone doing something bad at you without a reason or when you have some grudge at someone who make you sad/ angry, there are 2 choice to make yourself better. First, just search for objective information about why they do that to you, their motive, and reason behind them. Somehow, if you know the reason or their ‘core problem’, your grudge towards them will be dissipate and you can forgive them easier. Second, is realizing that sometimes, there are things that unexplainable or we better don’t know the answer for now. This ‘receive the mystery’ attitude also leads me always move forward and not crying over the past.
While learning tarot card with it’s various approach and method, I’m also learn that all kind of method have a goal in common: to make a better life AT LEAST for self. No matter the method in tarot like past life, karmic, astral projection, spell work, voodoo, self-hypnosis, and many more, the final objective is always to make our self become a better person day by day.
That conclude on my first writing, hope you, reader, enjoy my writing and I’m open to any input.
Thanks for reading and bless us.